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Monday, May 1, 2017

The New One Hopefully For Grand Daughter


What makes Us Happy

Life does not guarantee happiness, we keep seeking it in different ways. But do we already have it and do not see it? That is something that I am contemplating as I sit here  limited in what I can do. I think maybe I am lucky to be able to find happiness in the little things that I can do.
I know I am not going to be famous for my painting nor am I going to get  awards for my writing but do I need them is my question. I go into another world when painting, do I become different when painting or when  writing, it is like I go outside of myself to do it. Now I wonder is that place that I go to the real me, or are we different people for different things.
Was I mother earth when gardening and caring for my flowers? Was I a farmer when caring for the farm animals, or was the  loving caring woman that raised  all of her children, helping them become what they are meant to be. Do we wear different hats for different things. Can we allow ourselves to evolve into  what our potential really is or do we stifle ourselves from fear of failure, or of being laughed at.
As I sat here  yesterday  I was wishing i could do my yard work, that I could get a small camper and just go traveling, then all of a sudden I said  to myself and old adage my mom would say," If wishes were horses then beggars would ride". It was then I had a defining moment, Maybe I am doing exactly what is planned for me, maybe I am happy and do not appreciate the fact that happy isn't always what we think it is.
Maybe if we all just relax, take a deep breath and let it all go for a few minutes and as we refresh our electronics maybe that is what we need to do.Do we really have to worry and wonder if a political party is in office, do we really need to  wish we  could do things we can't , do we need to stress ourselves with needless worries that  have no bearing on our lives in the long run.
Something tells me we are mostly doing it all wrong and the hints we get to make changes are ignored. I for one am going to stop and let things happen for I realize that is exactly what  I do when painting and writing, I never plan any of it and it gets where I am suppose to put it whether its paint or words.